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My boss told me to take today off from work because I had so many things to pack. I'm moving out of my old apartment this weekend and into the top floor of a house. Oooh I'm so excited!! I will get two big rooms all to myself, and my OWN bathroom and kitchen, though they are small they will be mine not to share with any room mates. This new place will be much more private for me compared to the place where I live now, even if the room mate I have now is not home that often it's still a place I share with him and his stuff is everywhere.
So I can't wait to get out of here and into my new home :) And I can't believe how much stuff I've gathered here... I wish I was a more orderly person, one who didn't hide things under the bed and under the table and in boxes, because it's surprising how much I find everywhere. It's so bad I've decided not to ask anyone for help with packing, it's too embarrasing and I don't know what they could find 
Oh well right now the packing is doing great, and tomorrow my mother and step dad and some friends will help me move all the boxes and bags and some furniture. And as mentioned in my last diary entry my boss is ready to help me sunday if there is anymore to help with.
My biggest worry right now is my internet connection. If I'm lucky I can get online for a short period of time tomorrow and do updates on my site and read emails. But sunday I dont have internet access. Monday things should be back to normal, or so I hope :) I will tell it in my diary as soon as the moving is over and I'm settled at the new place.
It's going to be a busy weekend so please keep your fingers crossed and wish me luck with everything!
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Sometimes everything just happens on the same day or in the same weekend. This coming weekend I was supposed to go with my boss on a seminar from friday afternoon until sunday. But guess what? This same weekend is also the time when I have to move in to my new place! For those of you who didn't pay attention I have decided to rent the top floor of a house where two (girl)friends of mine live. The place where I live now is too expensive for me alone and my room mate wants to live with his girlfriend.
Oh, and I have been so busy lately that I think I forgot to tell you that my room mate is NOT moving out of the apartment, he will stay and then his girlfriend moves in instead of me. So I don't have to worry about anything with the old apartment, just move my stuff out. I bet he didn't tell his girlfriend about all the sex he had with me in every room of that apartment hahaha... she doesn't like me (jealousy I think) so I am sure he will keep his mouth shut.
Anyways, I had to tell my boss that I was not going with him to the seminar. He wanted me to come to help him with papers and taking notes at some meetings etc and also he wanted to fuck me I think. BUT... things have changed these last couple of weeks. Or HE has changed. I think his wife found out he was sending me a lot of text messages because lately he doesn't do it much. I didn't ask him why. If he wants sex with me then fine and if not then I'll probably survive without it
When I told him I had to move this coming weekend he got a little disappointed but later he told me if I was not done sunday he could help me carry the heavy furniture if I needed help. That was really cool of him! So when he comes back from the seminar sunday he will call me and see if I need anything. I don't know why but it really made me happy that he wanted to do that :)
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You won't believe this. I have visitors living here with me AGAIN. This time it's family and they will leave tomorrow (monday) and it has not been as terrible as it was last time. These people I can actually talk to with no problems and they are friendly and behaving well. But I still miss having my place to myself, to play loud music when I want, to walk around only in a top and panties if I want that and most of all to sleep as much as I want.
I only have a very minimal time alone at my computer to do my site updates so there have not been many updates these last days, I'm really sorry for that, just remember it's not something I can control right now. And it will get better as soon as they are gone :)
I ate so much unhealthy food, they keep buying cakes and burgers and chocolate and I'm almost ashamed at how much I ate! From monday when they are gone I will only eat vegetables and brown rice, promise!
It's not because I am used to being extremely healthy or anything but this is just too much. It can't go on like this. My breasts will grow out of the last bikini I have that I can fit in to. They will grow into monster boobs if I don't watch out!
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Have you ever tried to have someone come and visit you and then they just stay much MUCH too long? Well that is what happened to me now for a couple of days - Thank God its over now though, but it was the reason why I didn't update my site yesterday because I simply didnt have enough time alone to do the updates! Yes, it was terrible, it was frustrating, but there is just no nice way to ask people when they will leave again, is there? If there is I would really like to know it!
It was a friend (a girl) who came to visit me, I havent seen her for over a year since she moved to another city. Now she was back to visit her "old" friends, AND she brought her new boyfriend with her.
Maybe if she had come alone it would have been almost okay. He really made things a lot worse.
Normally I can get a conversation going with most people but he was the rare exception. When I said something he looked at me with... umm... empty eyes sort of, like I was talking a language he didn't understand! Argh!
So I said something and instead of an answer from him there was just this long embarrasing silence helllp! Yes, NOW it's funny, but not in the situation.
I still have no clue what was wrong with him. I dont think he was shy or deaf or braindead. Oh I give up, it will remain one of life's mysteries I guess I'm happy they are gone.
It felt like time stood still while they were here and it took them ten years to leave, but maybe it was really only a day and a half. I feel so strange now, on one hand I want to dance and celebrate because they have gone, but on the other hand I am SO tired, they mentally drained all my energy. So I think I'll just do a quick site update and then rest.
Fuck... if they ever come back again I'll pretend I'm not at home!
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Maybe I should tell how things went when we were at the beach Sunday? :) The weather was sooo nice, the air was just the right temperature and so was the water. We went there mostly to be in the water - and yes I did find a bikini to wear hehe :) I was surprised at how many people there were. I thought we would be more or less alone because we came so late but oh no. So there was nowhere I could hide in my much too small bikini. Actually it was a little bit embarrasing, and I rushed into the water as fast as I could. Oh well, it was fun too, and nice to spend time with my friends.
After a long swim I packed myself in a big towel and we sat and talked with some guys, I didn't know them but it was fun. One of them gave me his phone number but I'm not going to call him, to be honest he seemed too young. I want someone who can talk about other things than beer and parties. It's fine to hang out as a group but if I was alone with him I would have a problem with it.
Maybe I'll contact him in ten years when he has matured
We sat there until it got dark, it got really late, close to midnight I think before I got home and I was really really tired, but I had a really good day.
And you know what? I was going to buy food before I sat down to write this post but now its too late and all the good shops are closed *grr* so I'll have to make something out of the few things I have, apples, some old bread, corn flakes and orange juice. Hmmm.
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Oh man it has been a NICE day. The weather has been (and still is) so hot. I just ate pancakes with vanilla ice and strawberries and syrup - yummm - and in about an hour from now I am going to the beach with two (girl)friends. We go there to swim or splash around in the water and that is why we wait until now (its evening here) because then the water is warmest and the sun is no longer baking so much. And I also think the beach will be less crowded because most people have gone home to eat dinner.
I still need to find a bikini somewhere so I am a little stressed out right now but at the same time I am looking forward to being with these two girls, I have not been much around girls lately. On a normal day I talk mostly to guys/men (and I still feel like I do NOT understand many of them *grrr* ) so it will be great to talk to some GIRLS for a change :)
But I still prefer to have sex with guys even when I think they are stupid sometimes hehe :P
Oh, and if I get back late then there will not be any new gallery updates until tomorrow. I think we will stay at the beach until it gets dark and then I will probably be very tired when I return. Hopefully just tired and not sun burned. Have a great sunday/monday people! :)
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Since I got my vibrators I've had some very intense and strong orgasms and yesterday I read that there is not only one kind of deep orgasms but many! It all depends on how deep in you put the vibrator, it will hit a spot in there somewhere if you are lucky and it will lead to one of the deep orgasms. When I'm using a vibrator to penetrate myself I usually dont stick it in very deep, maybe only half way in, so it was interesting to read about all these deeper orgasms that I had never tried to have :P
So after I read it and it was getting late I decided it was time to go to bed and try out some new vibrator tecniques! And you know what? it actually worked!
First I was doing like I'm used to, sticking it about half way into my pussy, and I felt totally filled out. But then I started pulling the vibrator a little bit out and then in again and I tried to get it in deeper and deeper every time.
After some time I got it in deeper than ever before and it felt different than what I was used to, I had to get used to this new feeling and then I enjoyed it more and more.
And then when I didnt even expect it I had an orgasm! It was a STRONG orgasm, for a moment my body just bend together like someone punched me in the stomach, I couldnt control it!
It was surprising but felt really good, a new feeling I have never tried before :)
Oh, and tomorrow is a holiday here! wohoo :)
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Damn I've had some extremely busy days lately and I didnt know they would become SO busy, so I'm sorry I didnt update my site as much as I should. Well today I've added new galleries and I will continue working on new stuff until tonight because I'm going to a birthday party tonight. Honestly I would like to stay hoooome. I was also at a birtday yesterday, and I even had to say no to a third birthday party this weekend. Very strange. And when this week-end is over I've had enough of birthday parties for a LONG time.
One of the reasons why my last days were so busy was because of the birthday gifts. I never know what to buy and I keep telling myself there's plenty of time to do it and then when there are only one or two days left I panic and run around in all shops to find something and they never have anything. It's like they are all sold out of everything I want, even paper to wrap my gifts in!
So then I also have think of new ways to wrap a gift in something that is not paper so I try to find a box or a bag and I panic even more until its finally done and looks.. well.. special hahaha :)
And THEN I find out I have no clean clothes to wear and I panic again... and this is how I spent my last days
Well now I am so much on top of things that I am ready to go with a gift and clean clothes and everything *yayy* and I can sit here and do my updates and not worry so much. Aaah its a nice feeling :)
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Hehehe first a quick reminder of something VERY important: Click here Oh, and one more good advice: Click here The text in the end is Danish and it says sun beds can kill you Well luckily I havent been in a sun bed this year and also I dont think I'll need a condom because I just have ONE strong urge and that is to suck a cock and get cum in my face instead of fucking. Okay I admit fucking would be nice too but sometimes the only thing I can think of is to suck on something. I suck on a lollipop now because there is no cock anywhere near me :P
I have been busy lately trying to keep up with homework from my studies and I'm falling behind again *grr* because some days I just can't motivate myself to open a schoolbook when I come home tired from work.
So I think once more I will have to tell my boss to cut down on my hours. I need the money but I also need some more time to keep up with homework. There is no easy solution.
I just hope I can still afford the new place where I will move to soon. The rent is a little higher than here where I live now. I will have to be really careful with my money.
Oooh all the worries well enough of that now, its time to find a new lollipop :)
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I just got home from work and the weather has changed dramatically during the day. When I left this morning it was cold and rainy, but now its warm and dry so I will see if I can find a short skirt and a top to put on instead of the boring winter clothes I've had on all day. Oh, and before I put on new clothes I want a shower - AND one of my patented showerhead orgasm because I've been SO DAMN HORNY all day and I really need to relieve some tension :P
I spoke to my friend Lisa again today about renting the top floor of the house she lives in. I think I said yes! It's so exciting! One more good thing about that place is it comes with a garden "included". Our own garden, a private garden only belonging to this house with a big fence around. I could become a nudist and walk around in my private garden with no clothes on? And I could grow carrots and potatoes to eat when I used all my money on chocolate and pizzas?
Well anyway she told me I could still wait a week or so with my final answer and I told her I was 99 percent sure I wanted in. I didnt tell her that I dont like the third girl in the house, I think I'll just keep quiet and hope things will work out. It's not like I hate her or anything, she is just not the type of person I can talk to in a natural way. Both girls work part time and go to school just like me, and are generally just normal young people. They party now and then but not every week-end and nothing too wild and crazy.
Oh and one MORE good thing is Lisa has her own car! I dont expect her to drive me to work every morning but I'm sure there will be times where it will be a help for me too.
Well thats all for today, I'm off to have a shower now :P
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Yesterday one of my friends phoned me (her name is Lisa) to ask me if I was interested in renting the top floor of the house where she lives. There are 3 girls renting the house, two of them (Lisa and her friend Mia) share the ground floor (or is it called first floor?) They are not a couple, they are both single and have two rooms each. And then there is a top floor or second floor that is smaller and here lived the third girl but she is moving out soon. I've visited them several times so I know what it looks like and how big it is etc etc and I also know the girls of course hehe :)
There is a small bathroom and a small kitchen (what we would call a "tea kitchen") and two big normal rooms on "my" floor, and then there is a bigger kitchen and bigger bathroom for all 3 of us to share on the other floor.
I think it sounds interesting!! :)
But I will have to think about it first. There are some down sides to it. I dont like the other girl (Mia) that much. We dont have anything in common, to me she seems brain dead
It will take me 10-15 minutes longer to travel to school and to work. And I will have to pay a little bit more in rent. And of course there will be expenses if I move, maybe I'll have to buy some extra furniture because the place is bigger than what I have now.
Also, its just a normal "one family house" located in a place with mostly families with children so its probably not a place where I can find new friends or have parties with loud music all night.
But it comes very convenient because my room mate is moving out soon so I cant afford to live here alone for very long... hmmm... it's tempting to say yes. Oh, and she told me they will have the walls new painted and everything checked up before I move in, that is a plus too.
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I have a new favorite fantasy and I can "play" it in my mind many many times a day hehe :) it doesnt have to be when I masturbate, I also do it at work or in the middle of a movie or when I'm eating pizza :P Its not entirely a sex fantasy, or its not only "fuck fuck fuck" all the time, maybe that is why I like to think at it in all sorts of situations. Oh its running late here, almost midnight, so I'll just write it in a short version now...
Okay, in this fantasy I am in a place where I've never been before. Maybe a city I dont know and maybe even another country. I feel lonely and confused and dont know where to go. It doesnt matter how I got there, I just got lost and ended there.
Then out of nowhere comes this stranger over to me and he tries to help me, he is nice to me and maybe buys me something to eat.. oh yeah I lost all my money and phone too! I am really helpless! And I sit and eat and he looks at me but I dont notice his strange look.
He will then somehow get me to follow him home to his house. Maybe he tells me I can use his phone and he is just so friendly and helping and caring it doesnt seem like he is a bad guy at all.
When we get to his house (far away from all other houses and people) his phone is mysteriously not working. I have to spend the night at his house. And from then on things develop and he gets more and more possesive.
He doesnt force me physically to anything but manipulates me all the time. Slowly he takes control of me, what I eat, what clothes to wear, when to sleep and wake up etc.
Its like he breaks down my will and judgement. So I think its okay for him to touch my breasts, put his hand between my legs, help me get washed when Im in the shower etc etc...
There is no real end to the fantasy, I just imagine all kinds of situations where he manipulates me into having sex with him, so I guess the end is I become his sex slave :P
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Thats it! From now on I will never do what my mother told me. Not that I do it very much anyway hehe :) But yesterday I thought maybe it was a good idea to make my bed every morning like she always told me to when I was younger. I thought it could be the beginning of a new cleaner and more tidy life. It would begin with my bed, and then spread to washing up right after I finished eating, washing clothes every week, do my homework on time and simply become a much more organized person.
But it ended almost before it began. I wanted to make my bed, I grabbed a pillow and I broke a nail! On my most important finger, the finger I use the most when I masturbate! Huge crisis! It was bleeding and really hurt so of course I dropped the pillow and decided I would never make my bed ever again because it was bad luck to do it
So right now I feel handicapped. I can masturbate with my vibrators and thats fine but I found out its NOT easy to use a "new" finger when I masturbate with my fingers. It just doesnt feel right. I must wait for the nail to grow out again, hopefully not longer than a week or so :)
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I dont use sunbeds very often (or do you call them "tanning beds"?) - I am pale and will only get red when I do it, I never get a nice brown tan, and its not healthy and its too expensive. But once a year just about this time of year I see all the other girls start using their summer clothes and I look so white compared to them! So I think maybe I should "cheat" and use a sunbed. Of course it never helps, I come out with boiling red skin and maybe if I'm lucky some extra freckles on my nose. Its never a succes... maybe I should just remember it this year? hehe :)
But on the rare occasion when I actually AM in a sunbed I always wonder if there has been a man masturbating in the same sunbed. Not only masturbating but shooting his cum all over the sunbed. And did he clean it off afterwards or does he like the idea of a girl accidentally sitting on the rest of his cum, and maybe even lying down in it and not know it!?
A long long time ago I read about this guy who liked to wait and see who came out of the sunbeds. Well, or out of the room where the sunbed was. And if it was a really hot girl he would go in after her and fantasise about her naked body in the sunbed where she had just been, and he would masturbate and cum all over the sunbed. I dont remember if he cleaned it up afterwards, but I am sure this is why I get these masturbation thoughts when I'm in a sunbed.
The thought of him doing that is a bit creepy but same time exciting. I cant really explain why. But it doesnt disgust me. I think if I was a man I would probably be doing it too hehe! And maybe I would even make a small hole in the wall so I could watch the girls sunbathe in my cum hahaha...
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I found a VERY nice story site that I want to share with you: The Kristen Archives! Maybe some of you know it already but it was new to me. From the site: "This archive is based upon Kristen's collection of erotic stories. It was begun by her in 1997 and has been built on extensively since then. You will find every type of sexual situation covered in these stories; there have been no judgments made as far as subject." I promise you this site will provide you with enough erotic reading material for the rest of your life! GREAT site so dont forget to visit :-)
Today was a really nice day, nice and sunny for the first time this year. So I went through my drawers and found a tight pink summer top and I wore it with no bra. My nipples were constantly hard and very visible through the fabric because even though it was warm outside its still not summer so it was maybe a bit too quick to change into my smallest summer top.
But I still wore it when I went to buy some food in a shop near by hehe :) My nipples were so hard they almost poked holes in my top and its fun to watch how guys get almost hypnotized by them! Or maybe there is a secret language only known to men and nipples? Because I swear if my nipples could talk they would shout "Come and bite me please!"
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Dear Diary Friday June 27
